one month

I just notice it happened in exactly one month.

On Dec 16 I received call to join the church design team. I was hesitating; this is too good to be true. Although i prayed for it months ago, but when it finally comes, i got cool feet. So I told the Lord: You gotta talk to me.

That night, Pastor P preach about: Jesus is the light at your feet, not your expressway, walk one step at a time. Also, give to the Lord the gift He gave you, and remember God is a good paymaster.

Loud and clear.. but i was not willing to believe.

From Dec 18 till Jan, i went for interview after interview, yes and no, to join or not to join, measuring the pros and cons, asking around friends and family, and keeping asking Jesus: tell me what to do!

On Jan 14th, before Pastor C started his sermon, he prayed: those who going through career change, the Lord give you wisdom and guidance.. my tears went out

On Jan 15th, Pastor P preached a powerful sermon on: launch out into the deep, step out of your comfort zone. Give to Jesus the natural and let it turn to supernatural..

It was too loud to be missed.

I realised how weak my flesh is, so i decided to leave it to the Lord. I told Him: make decision for me.

So He does, before i know, i had told Pastor L i am joining the church. My flesh broke down and cry for its defeat, my spirit rejoice over its victory.

A days later, the Lord give another good news in terms of salary package. Surprise..@_@ I didn't want to expect bad news, but didn't thought of good news either.

Everything happened so fast. I haven't even react with my own rationale. But thank Jesus for that, cause i saw how weak i can be, my reasoning only tore me apart.

Imagine sitting in the train, and some stranger besides you happen to be reading some bible study book and the one scripture is printed there:

John 15:16
You did not choose Me, but I chose you and appointed you that you should go and bear fruit, and that your fruit should remain, that whatever you ask the Father in My name He may give you.

Amen...